10 years and counting

Today while I was showering; suddenly felt very thankful to Sophia for sticking by me through thick and thin. Especially this few months... Thank you God for bringing my friends into much life.

When all was dark, and I was falling, I prayed and prayed and prayed.. These people were the ones that pushed me forward.

Some people leave, some people stay. Some people are worth your time, some people are not. Some treat you as a priority, some just treat you as an option. Overtime their true colours will show.. :)

But now; BFF:

Thank you Sophia, I know you aren't reading this. But still...

Thanks for being always there.

When I called and bawled my eyes out over my broken heart; you were there.

When I was going nuts over As, you were there.

When I saw no reason to carry on; you were there.

Thank you for being so patient with me.

Thanks for answering my calls and messages immediately when you knew I was upset. That meant a lot; thanks for knowing the urgency, for knowing how much I needed help...

When I was feeling useless, and blaming myself over and over again over what I had done wrong in that relationship; thanks for telling me that I deserve better.

Thanks for telling me to cheer up, and for encouraging me on. Thanks for having so much confidence in my abilities. At that moment, i really needed that reassurance that I wasn't useless, that I could conquer As.

And when my heart couldn't mend immediately, and I desperately tried to get him back, to fix everything, to apologise, to do anything so that everything will be alright; thanks for always supporting me and backing me up.

Thanks for putting me as a priority despite your own busy schedule... Despite the fact that you have your As too.

Thanks for showing me what friendship entails: at that point, I was even questioning myself, asking myself if I was being too demanding, too sensitive, too needy. Thanks for showing me that I wasn't the one with a problem. Thank you for showing me what it means for someone to care about you. We all need some reminder. I honestly thought that I was being too needy, too emo, too selfish. Thanks for showing me that I wasn't the selfish one.

Those were dark days that I never wanna relieve again. But at least there's a silver lining: I know now, more then ever, who to trust and treasure.

This is true friendship. Being there, no matter what.

Some people are just worth more than others in our lives.

I remember when we were kids, hanging out by the drain during recess during primary 5, later on going out to JE to hangout, play arcade, take neo prints, hahaha.. Arguing over stupid things like whether I'm gonna join the so called popular gang for captains ball, fighting over stupid stuff (I'm glad we got over the fighting phase as we matured LOL), having cold war during bintan camp, going to westmall for movies, walking about malls doing absolutely nothing...

Growing up to become awkward teenagers, going out after school to central to eat Macdonalds, KFC, sumo house, to date you still remain the only person who is willing to eat Pizza Hut with me over and over again, how we'll always go find each other after class, how we'll talk about whichever boy was in our lives at that moment, of course all the random outings during the holidays, too many to write here!

And then entering college life... Mugging together, less time to meetup but I'm glad we never drifted. Feeling abit tired now so I shall not write too much.

10 years of friendship and counting.

And many more to come. University life, travelling overseas, countless more movies, more heartbreaks, more shopping trips, more doing of stupid things to come. and eventually, job hunting, maybe marriage (head bridesmaid!), looking for new homes, gossiping about our husbands, complaining about our kids, comparing the results of our kids, etcetc. i look forward to spending each milestone of my life with you.

Thank you for being my bestfriend. :)

Happy early national day Singapore!

Today was national day celebration in school - same as last year, no surprise. In the morning it was the uniform groups' march in and stuff, followed by the concert in the hall which was quite sian. But well, happy national day Singapore!

Went to Charmaine's house later. Totally have no idea how the class vid is gonna turn out. Haish. It's more of a music video... I hope I'm wrong :) went to school to find julia afterwards. cheers

Reliance, dependence, fear.

You know people are really relying on you when you stop yourself from voicing out your insecurities and fears because people are depending on you, they trust you and for their sake you have to remain calm, controlled, as if you're certain things are going to be successful. Because they find solace in your calmness and are not worrying because you aren't.

and i thought i nearly had it

I want a boy best friend who will call me beautiful, and like my photos on facebook, commenting on them saying things such as the fact he's proud to have my as a best friend. One that I can call up, crying about other boys, and him saying he'll beat the shit out of them for me. A boy best friend that will drive me around like they're my big brother. One who becomes friends with my boyfriend and one who calls me up to see what i'm doing. I want a boy best friend who will tell me when I am wrong, and force me into fixing things and apologizing because he knows that it will make things better for me. I just want a perfect boy best friend, who will love me and protect me from all of the other boys.
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SL project

This blogpost is to remind myself why I wanna organize a SL project, so that when I'm darn busy I'll still churn out some time for it no matter what.

Firstly, there is barely no meaning in my life. I want to effect changes in someone's life, even if it's just one person, in a small way, to make someone feel happy for awhile, it's enough for me.

I can't stand it that I live through everyday like nothing and i can't remember nuts about my life...

The power to effect change! And I'm even luckier that Kang Li is as enthusiastic as me. Kudos to all our productive discussions and her passion really rubs off me! Hard to find someone who is into the SL not for portfolio but really with the passion to help. Hopefully I can learn more from her! Life is not all about paper. (although admittedly it's quite important, but there are more meaningful things in life. Too bad people are too short-sighted to realise that.)

exploring

Okay. Anw. If any of you guys have been talking to me at all for the past few days, you'll knw that i wanna explore sgp. Hahahah.

Yesterday, went for badminton with 402 peeps in the morning and early afternoon. I was "classically late" LOL. Sorry to keep you guys waiting until they had to seat. Then when i arrive i still sit then i realised everyone was waiting for me haha. EXPLORED gombak's pasar malam. Nth much. Bought slurpee ;D Love my classmates. Joy's badminton is rather pro. Jocelyn and Fook's bros came too! Welll... Fook's bro seems to have slimmed down and his badminton is really goodddd. I played with Joy, Shiny, XingHui, Xinghui's bro, Yt, LC, erm... Huiqi...Who else?
Anw I started calling my backpack the explorer's backpack. And kept going on and on abt exploring lol. Apparently some of my friends caught my enthusiasm (erhemerhem). Okay lah not really.

Me, Jiaoyce, Jiao Tao, LC and radish head aka Mengyeow went to Clem's pizza for lunch. I ate spag and the rest ate Pizzapans I think. Lol. Jiaoyce ate the slowest. Kekeke.

;D AFTER that, we (Except LC who went home) decided to go exploring. Guess whose idea? Although I didnt invite radish head lah, he self invite one. LOL:P Okay hope he doesnt read this. We went to Chinese Garden's pagoda (or so I learnt). The view was good! First time there. hahaha. Pictures on fb but in case you are srsly outdated and don't have facebook, heres a picture.

Kope from fb, credits to Joyce's DSLR.

Anw the view is from 7 stories high and although its raining it was really fun!

Yeah. Then, we decided to go Mengyeow's house at Chinese Garden! The walk was very,very,very,very,veryx1000 long. Idk how mengyeow walk that distance everyday one la. Wtheck. hahaha. We went to his house and then stalked people's fb. ;D. Or rather SOMEONE stalked while we watched. Then played poker cards.

Then we decided to take bus to IMM to eat pepper lunch.. By then i alr die liao. My feet super lot of blisters and abit tired liao. Lol. Jiaoyce and MY didn't play badminton..so i think they were not so tired. Well I was. Decided to go home after that, missed ice-cream:( (anw i was so freakin full i couldnt eat anything haha)..

Walked ALONE (ya, abandoned by all my friends, jkjk.) to je station. haha at first i thought it would be pretty scary but actually alot of people walk la so not so scary. Thought abt whr to explore next on my way back. hahaha.

Anw.. Today was okay too! Woke up at 0930 to play audition. Lol i think i am abit weird. I prefer playing comp games early in the morning. I think because noone is up and i can play my games in peace. (cept for my bro but hes the best member of my family to be awake cos hes playing too lol).

Had piano later. Srsly i need to practice if i wanna have any hope of passing grade 8(let's not discuss merit or distinction first)...... Haish. Totally been abandoning my piano since O levels started. :( Gotta buck up XinHui!! Like jiaotao says.... ALLROUNDERS are the best. And i agree.

Managed to convince my bro and sis to go to the baking shop with me after that. ;D Bought lots of ingredients for the choco cake ;D Which i probably will be baking later. Yaya XINHUI the BAKER jkjk. Okok i think i am lame but ya. I will (or actually may) post pictures abt it here.

Do note that I'm not blogging for your benefit. Actually I'm blogging so that next time when i grow OLD i can rmb how my life was like. (although very LARGE bits and pieces are missing here and thr lol)

Ok la but thanks for reading (UNLESS YOURE MY BRO/ SIS then srsly get away ;D)

Byebye.

Sci center (CSI MIAMI) with the same gang tmr. ;D

I realised today, that friends are only as close as you let them to be.

Yeah I know this is super lag of me.

And i wonder, why isit that people fall apart? I realised that i have been pushing people away all my life. Maybe I just don't really wanna trust anyone, cos in trusting, you never know when they'll backstab you.

But then now i realise, if i don't give people a chance, how will i ever know?

Okay. 2.20AM. Better go to sleep. Tmr will be a tough day of revising. For Monday's paper..

Just wanna try my best.

I feel really despondent, but at the same time extremely angry. It's like.....haish. I don't know how to say. Should I appreciate friends who don't appreciate me?

It's like. When my birthday comes and you dont bother giving me anything or whatever, should I give you a present or a card? Some people will say No. Others will say Yes. And I am stuck in the middle. This is the worse kind of predicament. It's like my mind asks me to forget abt all these "friends". While my heart tells me to just let bygones be bygones and make them a present. You know what I mean?

P/S Just something random. I hate people that "conveniently forget" my birthday or "conveniently forget" to give present just because my birthday is during the holidays.

Just being random. Random thought of the day. Bye.

(Eisabess plurked this on plurk!! Cool!)

My favourite day of the year :)) ^_^ ^_^ ^_^ weeee

Thanks everyone who wished me happy birthday and gave me presents. Although i haven't really received alot of presents yet cuz today is a Saturday. Shall post more next time. I realised my blog mati liao. Heck.

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Thanks all the people who wished me happy birthday. :D

Srry if i missed out any.

Phone/ mouth: Sophia, Felicia, Zi Hui, LC, Joyce, Xing Hui, Meng yeow, Desiree, Gaopeng, my aunt, my family hahaha.

Plurk: Clara, Gina, Qiaoru

Msn: Sin Yee, Min Quan

Facebook: Peiqi, Zhenghua, Mengting, Linfang, Junwei, Hui Shan, Li ying, Bao Yi, Kai hua, Wanda, Sihong, Qinsi (plus some np STC mates and some other people i dunno or forget how i met de)

THANKS! :D:D:D:D

P/S if you were wondering why noone wished me by mouth, it's because I'm a monster. Noone dare to talk to me. Oh wait. My birthday on Saturday hor...no wonder. :P

GO

Plurk is spammed with people emoing over their EOY results.
To everyone who is disappointed over their EOY results:

I know its not easy,
I know its hard
I know its not always pretty.
Get up and go,
Take a change and be strong,
Or you could spend your whole life holding on.

Take a breath move along

I know you guys can make it through cos I believe in you all
So let's put up a fight
Lets go make everything alright
Go and take a shot and give it all you got in the next exams...

:)