Finally, some time to blog. Well, to my disappointment, we didn't even get into finals...

Haha yeah. I feel that it's really quite wasted, after all the time and effort spent. But at the very least, i've learnt far more than i ever expected to in these few months. I can't really say it's wasted time, cuz for all the time i was learning stuff about the nightsky or astrophysics or whatever, the opportunity cost was probably just a few hours of tv here and there..?

Learned quite a lot these few months, but still, it felt like all my efforts and energy were flushed away. But i don't really blame anyone, the truth is, our standards really weren't there, in my opinion. The other schools were really good, NJ sent a whole team of J2s, VJ sent china scholars (who probably had lots of experience already), RJ, well, self explanatory, NUSH.. Haish. Yeah, I feel that we just couldn't make the cut, it wasn't about luck or whatever. We just weren't good enough, even though we tried so hard. But it's okay though, at the very least, we've put in lots of effort and although i feel that we've disappointed lots of people, i feel that our team has really done very well already, seeing that we only had 3 months of experience where others had like 5 years or so...

Went to WCP to rant with AC team, i feel that we've really became very bonded :)

Also today was ACSTJ, seriously, totally didnt wanna let them treat us, seriously, i really have no face to let the seniors treat us alr, after all their efforts, this is what we gave them? of course they were very understanding, but yeah. we've let them down.

Whatever it is, time to move on, life goes on, i need to move on, i can't be stuck in the past. Gotta start mugging, mugging, mugging, for BT, catch up with my friends, do PW, talk to my siblings, practice my piano, think about life, give myself some leeway, things i've forgotten ever since AC came round the corner, we can't bring back time, and to be honest, this is one of the few times where if you'd given me the clock to turn around to change something so that we wouldn't have screwed up, i realise that there's nothing i would change. Or rather, there's seriously nothing i can change even if im given a time machine.