What 2 months of doing nothing taught me

Back during the school year, I barely had much time to do nothing. My schedule was always packed with CCA, studying, family commitments and outing with friends and classmates.

After A levels, I tried a different approach. I basically did everything and anything I wanted to do. And I realised that it led to basically nothing. Really nothing. The day will be something like (assuming I don't go out or anything, assuming that it's an awesomely boring day and its raining etc.) wake up: check fb, check blogs, whatsapp... *insert activity using phone here* for like half an hour, finally drag myself out, use my computer/ watch TV, maybe a jog in the evening, get on with my internet business idea a little. That's how my day goes. :X

I have to proudly state that i am officially sick of slacking. Really. Doing nothing felt great initially but after like a long period of it (okay fine I didn't exactly do nothing, I did go out with friends + do my applications + other stuff but most of the day was spent on nothing, compared to previously where almost like zero% of my day was spent slacking) I'm officially bored of doing nothing. Seriously. As if that's possible, but yes it is. Maybe I was built to do something, and that something isn't wasting my time doing nothing.

I now feel like doing something meaningful. 

Yep, that's what slacking taught me. And it may seem like a very DUH! thing to you maybe, but let me tell you this: the only way you can possibly reach this realization is to slack. Seriously. There is no other way. You may convince yourself otherwise to avoid living such a life, but deep inside you WILL yearn for rest and relaxation. It is only by taking this unproductive route that you may realise that maybe doing whatever you want i.e slacking is actually absolutely useless.  Now, everyone knows it's absolutely useless, hence I should clarify, doing whatever you want (like absolutely freefall) into slacking DOES NOT MAKE YOU HAPPY.

Well people have a misconception that its relaxing and it is but after awhile there is this emptiness... but most people will probably never reach that nirvana where they are actually bored of doing nothing, anyway. They are too busy with their small lives that they don't really reach a stage where they go like. Hell yeah. I'm casting away whatever society wants me to do and just DO WHATEVER I WANT.

Which led me to a quarter-life (haha) crisis. WHAT IS THE MEANING OF LIFE?

So I took a walk downstairs today and walked like 20 rounds around my condo. I was extremely disturbed one day (but i only thought about it today) because I have always thought that happiness in life was being comfortable, relaxing, having enough time on my hands, being stress free (imagine like a massage of something, that feeling), having enough rest etc.

Well, something like what this picture depicts

All of a sudden, all my preconceived notions about the meaning of life (save the religous ones) - to attain happiness in the abovementioned way was being challenged. i was wrong!!! I did whatever I want but now I'm getting more and more unhappy with zero fulfillment.

So then, what is the meaning of life, and what makes one attain happiness?

Let me take a moment to clarify now that any mentioned theories on this site about life and any other ambiguous notions are all my thoughts and by no means does it mean that it applies to everyone. So if you do not agree, then well, that's fine with me too! We all have our different views about life so peace out and just mull over mine without judging.

Well, after much thinking, I have gathered that happiness is no longer about relaxing and living a comfortable life. That is important, but to reach that stage of happiness, one has to aim for certain things.

I'm guessing I just had the wrong definition of enjoy.

1. Appreciation by others. Read above disclaimer. While I do agree strongly that one should not be affected by what others say (yes really. just live your own life, that's what I do anyway), we are ultimately humans and are social creatures. Hence by doing something that people approve of and applaud you for, thereby making them admire you, you're more likely to do something as compared to something everyone disses. Screw society but well we are humans. :( The point is to find the sweet spot where people appreciate you and you actually like what you are doing.

For me, the most obvious two ways would be:
(A) Expanding your creativity
(B) Doing kind deeds and helping others

2. Purpose in life, closely linked to 1. Because it's pretty obvious that 1 and 2 are concurrently achieved.

3. Love and intimacy by your loved ones. (Hence the importance of maintaining relationships with families and close friends.) Love is the core of a life. Money is really, secondary, albeit being a tool for being at a better position to pay attention to love at the same time.

And that's about all, so far. =)...

Life is after all, limitless. I guess as I grow older, new experiences coupled with new people I meet will always give me a fresh perspective, allowing me to undoubtedly shape and improve my existing perspective of the world as I perceive it to be and my role in it.

*Pictures from google. Quotes are all by famous people :)