THIS SONG IS AWESOME I LIKE

Somehow I just know everything that you do

DEJAVU INDEED

Okay I am indecisive, TWENTY SEVEN DAYS more to O levels and i still use the computer haha win liao.

NEEDA BUCK UP

PLEASE BLESS ME GOD

Byebye

For now, I just don't feel like keeping a blog anymore.

Just wanna keep this blog to listen to the song.

Cya guys around!

one more step closer to freedom

yoyo, prelim 2 over, O levels in 35 days! Jiayoujiayou. Shall slack for a few days before starting my engine lol. Anw wanted to play badminton with 402 pp today but malay paper ended too late. By the time me and Fook reached sports hall, they were alr gone, and were eating sakae buffet, so forget it..

Last Friday went to Mid-autumn at NHHS. Sophia came over and we stalked people on facebook, watched camprock 2, and watched videos on youtube. MA at NHHS was okay lah. Think all the sec4s at home zzz-ing or slacking alr. The stalls lacked creativity, only the haunted house seemed interesting but the long queues outside was like mosquito repellant lol.

Yeahhh then homed. My grandma just moved in with us. Have to move out of my room and my bro's bed is shifted to my study room. Nice. Nvm if its for my grandma i don't mind(:

Nth much, back to mundane school life, i kinda like exams cos can go back early.. Back to 2.30 dismissal everyday and 5.45 every malay day..zzzzz fml.

I noticed my itouch is sapping all my time away. Lol. Nvm.

Lazy type le. Bye!

P/S Realised i type damn lot but my blog template make it seem like damn little. Damn. ahahahaha

I realised today, that friends are only as close as you let them to be.

Yeah I know this is super lag of me.

And i wonder, why isit that people fall apart? I realised that i have been pushing people away all my life. Maybe I just don't really wanna trust anyone, cos in trusting, you never know when they'll backstab you.

But then now i realise, if i don't give people a chance, how will i ever know?

Okay. 2.20AM. Better go to sleep. Tmr will be a tough day of revising. For Monday's paper..

Just wanna try my best.

brand new day

Weird dreams night after night. Finally fell asleep at 4am yesterday and had a really nice dream, only to be woken up by an alarm at 530 =( My sister's. Totally made me mad. Yeah.

Listen to the blogsong. Learning it now. Inspired by somebody.

people get stuck in moments

Another weird dream

Yo had another weird dream yesterday night. Me ah fook Joyce and 3 others promised some monk/ pastor (I really dunno which one) that we will go for some impt festival performance thing. Then when we were following him there we decided that we didn't wanna go.. Then we ran away from him and he started chasing us like crazy.. The other 3 ran another direction and were safe but that guy kept chasing we 3, runrunrun. And then I dunno why we were caught or something. Thn we were like sent to the palace like place where it was being held. Then we were like given separate jobs to do. I was supposed to give something(forgot) to the crazy monk. When i entered backstage it's likesuper cool!

All the performers were like or glitzy and glam. Then I wanted to go. When I saw the monk I was shocked. He had 7 children and a few of them were rather cute. They were eating and I gave him the thing. Then I begged the monk to let me see the event. He finally let me. Then as I was abt to leave I thought maybe I shd help my friends ask too. He agreed but whn I went put, all my friends was gone. The whole hall was filled with pp of diff uniforms but no Nan hua uniform. Then I decided I didn't wanna go. I went back, wanting to tell the monk but then I chickened out at the last minute and didn't dare to tell him. In the end watched the festival, then it ended very late and my mum was super worried ad I wasn't enjoying myself much either and it was super awkward. I was so relieved to see my mum i even hugged her. And that's all I can remember. And I dunno if it's monk or pastor. It's some religous guy.. Can't rmb

Maybe my mind is subconsciously telling me to GET OUT THERE AND DO MORE STUFF instead of studying #*$&# triple science and amaths.

weird dream yesterday night

Yeah. Anw update. Finally september holidays but i doubt that I'm gonna do much besides mug? Anw had a weird dream yesterday. Spent my early night (1AM-3AM) watching some korean movie. Tried to sleep from 3-330AM, slept at 4AM, woke up at 12PM the next day.

In the dream, I was something like a clan. I was in a rather big clan. Then we're like a special breed of people cum vampires. We dont suck blood or what. Our eyes are red. Rather cool leh I think. Instead we have magical powers to attack others. Because others keep attacking us.

Anyway I was a rather strong 'vampire'. Can't really remember who was who to real life, but i remember one or two... Anw like i said I'm rather strong. Unlike the others, I have the ability to fly/levitate in air. And I have alot of super powers. Including:

Freeze (person freezes for a few seconds)
Shane (person becomes disorientated for a few seconds)
Absorb (When i put my hand to the person's heart I suck all his abilities, then I can use his powers and he loses his, then like the longer i put the more power i get)
Destroy (some huge ball will come out from my hand and boom the person)

LOL damn lame. I used freeze and shane quite a lot, cos I had this guy vampire BFF (lets call this A) and hes very weak and I have to protect. Our clan had this 2-story HQ which was rather safe if we stayed there cos we have alot of pp in the clan. Then I dreamt that one day me and A had to go to the streets and then alot of vamps started attacking and its damn cool la. To identify, have to see the eyeball if red anot. If their in "vampire mode" then it'll be red. Or otherwise it'll be normal coloured but then in human form they cannot do anything lah. But can convert mah.

Anw we were being chased rather much and alot of vamps kept coming and i kept shooting freeze behind. Then got one or two times I got to absorb some powers. Damn scary i kept screaming for my friend to convert but i dunno whats wrong with him very weak. Had to carry the person (i can fly mah) to run back to HQ.

Then my clan got set up and backstabbed by some alliance clan. They pretended to wanna meeting with us for something. Then when we got back they started attacking us le. Damn scary. Lol. Alot of casualty. I remember that I took some power from another vamp B, to permanently convert vamps into pp mode. then he become rather weak. I was really strong lah. Its like the louder I say the word, (something like for the spell) then the stronger the attack will be. Then got one time i screamt damn loud DESTROY and then this enemy vamp just evaporated in front of me.. LOL... But I personally like freeze and shane lah cos always have pp chasing me then these 2 help me disorientate them while i run. And absorb is pretty cool too. I ended up with lots of new powers sia.

Please note that its not really a vampire. In actual fact this has nth to do with vamps but i cant put a name to this weird species.

Still have some personal details lah. But cant remember much. =(((( I was like cursing myself in the morning for forgetting details to such an interesting dream.

This is damn cool. Dont ask me why shane i also dunno why.

So this is what it feels like to be unsure of yourself. FML..

All the pointless waiting

Ever felt very tired, but yet you're not willing to give up? Because on giving up, you don't know what getting something will be like? How about if it's all you ever wanted? Will you give up or continue pinning your hopes and preparing yourself for a potential disappointment that will kill your soul? Then again.... All you have ever wanted..


She fell, she hurt, she felt. She lived. And for all the tumble of her experiences, she still had hope. Maybe this next time would do the trick. Or maybe not. But unless you stepped into the game, you would never know.
— Sarah Dessen, This Lullaby

IF I CAN DREAM IT, I CAN DO IT, but dear God, please let a miracle happen soon or I will really start freaking out..... Emaths paper 1 was easy as hack. Freaking easy.still have half hour to check through the paper. Haha. Hopefully can pull up p2 which was not so well done. Geog paper was super hard. Both the lorms paper for q3&4 is super weird, ended up doing q1&4. Q1 was okay, butq4 was NOT cos I couldn't finish and my Lorms I dunno hw to do. Sadd. And have one green revo q I also dunno how to do. Total is 8+5 marks leh. But I got write alot of crap lah, hopefully it's relavant=) gosh I'm super hungry bow. Byee!

if you want the impossible, you have to do the impossible.

Love this quote. Totally inspiring, and guess where I took it from? Yeah.........from.... me. Thought of it myself. Teehee. Okay nothing better to write. Just came here to gloat about me passing piano grade 7. For someone that didn't touch scales until a few days before the exams, and only learning properly one of my pieces a week before, I think 117(3 marks from merit) is really not bad le. For a last minute chionger. I am now grade 8! Fast..the years pass by quick man.

I think that this layout if abit too girly for me leh. Need a change. But then, too lazy leh..This is the blogger's custom made one. hahaha.

DAMN I JUST SPENT SUPER LONG ON FACEBOOK NOW I AM SLEEPING AT 3AM FML.
Yeah. AND SORRY FOR PRIVATING MY BLOG..ya know sometimes you just feel like keeping things to yourself.

Prelims is..what can I say. I just don't feel pressured at all. I think i felt more pressure during the first prelim. I really hope that it's because I know everything alr, but some how i doubt that is the reason. Sweet. I can't choose which I prefer: Getting all stressed and studying more or my current state, just floating around, studying minimally but not getting stressed up at all. It's now 2.19AM. Anw Emaths was a reasonable paper but my brain couldn't process some questions properly. Cross fingers for A1, anw maths has never been my strong point. SS, I sneaked a look at the paper when we were supposed to write our names..and saw question 2: HEALTHCARE and I literally laughed out in joy. Then upon observing the other questions, I realised the other one was D&D + Terrorism, and.............VENICE. I even spent a few moments contemplating which question to do...because I spotted everything spot on. ha! Okay in the end I did healthcare because the Venice question (foreign talent) is like between rise and success. And I like healthcare more.

I need to find the motivation. I'm like moving through life with no meaning, I only have enough motivation to study just enough for my prelims. I know just what I want, and I don't mind risking everything to get to what I want. But do you get the feeling? Like it's so easy to just pass through one day, just doing nothing.. And poof that day is gone. And then a week..2 weeks? 3? A month..Without any miracles happening. No dreams fufilled, nothing bad happening, but nothing good either..

I know I am being all hard pressed now. Don't blame me, blame it on my intellectual brain who has to think so deeply into everything. Cos today could be your best day here. Today could be your worst day. Or maybe, just maybe, today could be your last day on Earth.