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today i will share with you why some people are always unlucky

Scenario:

A man was eating breakfast, and his daughter accidentaly spilled a cup of coffee, dirtying his shirt in the process.

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His daughter feels so guilty she is about to cry, but he says: "Nevermind, it's okay, I'll go get dressed again." and he gets changed. Downstairs, he saw his daughter again and waved goodbye to her. She says that she is sorry. The man goes to work and has a great day.

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His daughter feels so guilty she is about to cry. The man gets really mad and screams at his daughter for being so careless. His daughter becomes so upset she starts crying and crying. He gets changed and the man then screams that his wife should have woken his daughter up earlier and not at the same time as him. His wife gets pissed off with him and they start arguing. His daughter, so upset, missed the school bus. He has no choice but to drive her. Downstairs, he realised that he was so angry that he lost the key. Cursing, he goes up to get his keys. After driving his daughter to school, he gets to work 1/2 an hour late and was screamed at by his boss.

Now you know why some people always seem to be lucky right while others have the worst luck ever?

Phy SPA skill 3 tmr. All the best!

1 more day

^ Universal Studios, Resorts World Sentosa, Singapore.

Mabbe i should just accept that I am just not good enough. Damn. Forget it. Totally wasted my time in the middle of prelims for this. What the crap. Haish...

Stayed back todae for emaths mock paper. Totally sian. My life sucks man. All i do each day is wake up feeling like the worst fucking shag in the whole world, swearing to myself I will sleep earlier that night. Go to school, try to study, sometimes have malay. Chiong home to get some sleep, reach home at only freaking 6 plus to 7. May or may not get a nap, eat, shower, STUDY again, and then sleep late again.

EVERY DAY

This life sucks like hell trust me. YES pathetic. Damn. Hope the next few months passes by like wind sia. I wanna do lots of things after O levels. The source of all my trouble.

I WONDER WHAT IT FEELS LIKE TO HAVE NOTHING TO DO FOR MANY DAYS, JUST DOING WHAT I WANT.

3 more days..

Played bball with 402 and Hillgrove pp ytd. They are quite good and i wasn't very good at all. But it's a good first attempt at basketball i guess? Went home with Jiaoyce and Desiree the most jiao person i have EVER met except MYSELF. Okay lah just kidding. After talking to her I went home thinking that this is really one great person who isn't selfish at all and has excellent moral values. Don't ask why i just feel like that. I remember thinking that's why I like 402. There are many people there that bring out the best of me. Or maybe we are bringing out the best in each other? Hmmmmmmm.

Got back report card. Damn! English B3, Amaths B3, Chinese A2. The worst is PE have B? WTF? ME? I whole life also get A one leh. Srsly =_=.

Tomorrow am going to universal studio with my family. Ha! ha! ha!

There's something that's been upsetting me too. No matter how good i get for my results hor. It's like my parents don't care one. Lol. A good trade off, i suppose, since they hardly ever give me any pressure to score like all As or something. But at least some encouragement? Or reward? But nevermind. At least I'M happy, the source of all my pressure and stress. Lmao.

Wish i can be more decisive. Wish I can know excatly WHAT THE F I WANT IN LIFE.

Let's see... I don't know what I wanna be next time, what JC i wanna be in and some other private stuff that i cannot post here lah. Later have pp see then i get into trouble. kk byee!

For me I'm sure if you zoom out of this picture, you'll notice "My own expectations" chaining the other leg. Lol.

There'll always be a "lie" in believe, an "over" in lovers, an "end" in friends, an "us" in trust and an "if" in life.

Look forward to my 15 minutes of ownage tomorrow.

Btw am not going to school tomrorow. Lol.

GOALS FOR THIS WEEK (In order of importance)

1. Study for O levels Bio SPA (Wednesday).
2. Practice HARD for piano grade 7 (Thursday).
3. Do something about my English.
4. Sort out my stuff.
5. Friday (after piano exam): Start reviewing revision schedule.

Damn. My fingers (and my entrire arm) ache from playing the piano. I wanna be grade 8 SO BAD. Yeah. I feel abit guilty for not studying but whatever. I need the pass more badly.. Not compromising O levels though yeah. Feel damn shit now. I HAVE TO FOCUSSSSSSSS esp my scales damn suck. But that's only becauuse i haven't been practicing for the whole year. Lol.

Hahaha. I like to learn but i don't like exams and tests and homework. I like to play piano but i hate scales and exams. LOL. I like to exercise but i don't like to sweat and get tired. I like to eat but then i dun wanna die of coronary heart disease or diabetes mellitus or whatever. I like to sleep but i don't wanna waste time. I like to listen to headphones but I'm afriad it'll spoil my ears. I like to talk but I'm afraid people will disagree with my point of views. I like to watch TV but it's a serious waste of time. I like to blog here but i hate it when people judge me by what I'm writing.

LIFE IS FREAKING IRONIC

no motivation

i'm a flower quickly fading

just another day for all the suits and ties

Yo. Currently feeling uncertain abt my future. On one hand, I wanna go to a JC that will let me excel. But on the other hand, i don't wanna be with people who are too smart and then i get too stressed up and do even worst. So now what lol.. i know people say that "see score than say" but i can't do that. I started reading this chinese book and it says that we need a direction and goal to work towards to. Okay lah my chinese may not be the best but at least i can understand. We are all boats, but no matter how fast we go in any direction, if we don't know our destination, we'll never complete our journey.

Initially I have always wanted to go to NJ one, but then i have been constantly hearing rumours abt how mugger and stressed it is, how people there are really ****** up, how competitive it is there, how people steal notes, how people are not helpful.. blahblah, blahblah. I am sure not everyone there is like that lah. But then there is such thing called wu2 feng1 bu4 qi3 lang4/ alah bisa tegal biasa okay. I am those sort of people that dont listen in lesson, sleep in lesson, slack in school, dont do homework one. I rely on my classmates quite alot okay...

Anw JCs I will consider (in order of merit):

- Hwa Chong (3, raw score 7)
- NJ (4, raw score 8)
- ACS (I) (5, raw score 9)
- ACJC (6, raw score 10)

Yupp. And if my score is really lousy like crap, I will go to SAJC/AJC. if still cannot than JJC and worst case is obviously poly lah. And ermmm. I know still have others like RJ and VJ but those are really too far. I dun wanna waste my life travelling.

Funny how I already plan my future so vividly for if my score sucks. Lol. But if my score is good than i dunno where to go. Good hor. Pro liao me. HC is obviously good and also abit out of my reach lah. Even if I can get in i also dunno if i wanna get in anot=_= but can get in first than say. Ditto for NJ cept that people are not as smart academically? AND read above para.

ACSI is a IB school. Different certificate, different exams, i am hesitant to join something so different and mentally challenging but i guess its a good school. Recgonised certificate. DIPLOMA w/o going poly. And also the school fees very ex la. Lol.. Haish..

ACJC. lol. i dunno why. i just like ACJC. Mabbe because not so stressed. More relaxed.

Oh yah both ACs are near my house too. NJ and HC abit further only.

I wanna do well but i also need a life man!!!

Heyyy. I was just looking through my neoprints, Remenicising abt the past. How time flies so fast, it really blows my mind away.. In a blink of an eye, it's half way through 2010 already. It seems like just yesterday when me and my primary sch friends will go to jurong entertainment to crap, take neoprints (yes neoprints), arcade, and movie. And whoosh. 2006. 2007. 2008. 2009, and now it's freaking 2010, and we are all grown up already, but still doing the same things(cept neoprints I guess) albeit at a different place. The thought that time flies so fast really is scaring me now, wow it seems like just a moment ago I stepped into 302, looking forward to a new beginning with all the fresh faces, which I will not be seeing rlly soon.. Gosh.


 Yeaahhhh what saddens me most, is how people who were my best buddies last time.. Are really just strangers now. Wow. Looking back at all the neoprints was really a thought provoker. These people who were my closest buds to me are barely strangers or merely hi bye accquaintainces now. People who I used to spill all my darkest secrets and whom I spent the best times of my life with, I barely talk to them anymore.. Time really can make people become lost.

Gosh. I miss nhps so much. Those carefree innocent and pure fun days will forever be etched in my memories. Funny how we must lose something to appreciate it, I guess this is reality. With no doubt at all, I am almost certain that when I graduate from Nan hua high and enter a new school, with fresh expectations and new impressions to make, I will definitely miss my life now. My friends. Whywhywhy must friends become strangers with time. Why must time fly so fast. I will be 16 in 4 months time!! I don't wanna be 16!! I want more time to be stupid and silly and do dumb mistakes to fall in love to fall to laugh to treasure my friends my days in nhhs being a stupi reckless teen with nth to worry abt except my grades. I dun wanna grow up and go to a jc that will stress me up. I don't wanna be serious. Most importantly I wanna keep all my friends that I have now!

I suppose that is not possible though. I remembered how when I graduated from nhps, those familiar faces around me made me feel so sad to leave but I was optimistic abt sec sch. Woww if I only knew these very same people will slowly fade until they are only a brief memory in my past. Sweet 16, I am not ready for you. Whether I like it or not..

The day where I am going to Finish preliminary exams 2, finish o levels, throw a sweet 16 party, have prom, graduate from nhhs is gonna come. I pray that when those days finally make their arrival, I will be ready to embrace every new experience and appreciate every single moment, every single conversation and fully enjoy each and every precious moment that will only happen once in my life. Xoxo

I can do anything because God gives me strength

Today was a big day for me. First time going to church with Wanda. Hahah. Bethany Church or something. It was a once in a lifetime experience. Woww. Yeah that's all i can say wow. It's an experience that cannot be felt anywhere else on this Earth. I was so shocked. I never expected service to be like this lah. Although i really went in with literally no expectations. Whoosh. I maynot be very experienced but yeah. Hope that I count as something!

Went shopping also. Lol. Actually not really lah, just ate ToriQ. Quite nice but my sore throat spoilt everything. The waterfall at TAKA really nice. Guess if I were 10 years younger I would be playing with it. But all i wanna do now is buy a really good camera and capture all these beauty. Or drawing it out.

Wowwww. I like the singing part best. Okokok. Wow wow wow wow

Tuesday going to watch Despicable Me with Sarah Irene Sophia. Yeahhhhhhh.

Went to watch eclipse and ate Swensens with Sophia errrrr.... total SPLURGE i now no $$ alr wtf!!!! Last Wednesday i think. Yeah. I know I said i wouldn't update. But I feel so inspired now. Lolllll.

Been slacking for this few days though. WELL DESERVED SLACK CAN. YEAH! Got back more prelim 1 results. Soso bah. Just disappointed in English. I CAN DO ANYTHING.

Also realised i kinda misplaced my trust in someone. But i gave that person a really tough tongue lashing already. I hope that person learnt a lesson. Yah thanks for treating my feelings so lightly and telling lies so blatantly I HATE PEOPLE THAT LIE FOR NO GOOD REASON. And i hate misplacing my trust. I really hope that you're sorry. Srsly. I REALLY treated you as one of my closer friends but how could you do this.

Btw Joyce if you're reading this YOUR BLOG IS MAKING ME PUKE. BIG TIME.

The voice that calms the sea will call out through the rain and calm the storm in me!

First time in i think 1/4 of a year to post. Today marks the first day after prelim 1. Received a few results todae, not particularly pleased with any of them. Yeah, what's surprising is that I don't really bother about marks any more. Which is really a big difference from previously? I guess the main point was that i did my best and this is but a vapour in the wind that will be gone soon.

Urghhh have not been feeling well this few days. Sore throat..

Yeppp. So for this few months. Nothing much happened, just studied and studied and studied and let this blog rot lor. Just become more mature and......to become more calm and unaffected by anything. What's the word? Apathetic. Pia-ing for piano grade 7 now. Grade 8 sounds pro, which I am.

Sorta planned my immediate life already. I realised that with each step forward, everyday is but a small chapter in my life. I also have a gazillion things which I plan to do during the holidays. Life with directions is so fufilling. Maybe Sax, photography, drawing, baking, reading, swimming? Goshhh.

I also realised something else. bio, chem, phy, and amaths is definitely not my cup of tea. Just studying them gives me the shit, let alone memorising the entire book..Ah well not that i have a choice. Mabbe if we weren't forced to memo everything i would actually i have liked what i was studying..say SS or geog. Or even History or Biology.

Todae in biology class, Mdm Yong said that rice below certain inches are filtered out and sold for a cheaper price. In a way, life is also like that, isn't it? O levels, for one. Life IS a selection process, whether we like it or not. Those who are not chosen lose out. Be casted away. While those that are chosen get stronger and stronger. Just like choosing tomatoes in NTUC. Only those without bruises will be chosen... but in the process of being cast away, finger marks will still be left on the tomato that will be cast aside. Like humans who fail. And never stand back up again. What's ironic is that if the tomatoes were not damaged, they might actually have stood a chance of getting picked by someone else.

I have finally found who I am. Whatever it is, NOTHING can defeat me. If i want anything, i will eventually get it..'cos I will never actually fail.

Srsly some people should get a life. Esp shallow people with no brains and are extremely superficial. Being mean. Gossiping. Ignoring people. Changing oneself to be cool. arghh looking at them act like they're the kings of the world and STILL be satisfied and proud of themselves...irritating but well it's their life.

One more thing..doubt anyone is reading this anyway and i doubt that i will be blogging anytime soon maybe in another 1/4 year time lol. yeah piano lessons now cya around soon.